fifth post

sweet so my friday night plans didn't go as planned. i was pissed but i'm not anymore. not worth it. but it does pose a few questions to myself that i can't bring myself to answer truthfully. basically what i mean is that since i had this time to be alone and what not, and think, i've been asking myself some things but not allowing myself to answer them because i dont' want to admit them. that is the worst. i think that i talk to myself too much in my head. too much self-conversing is going on.