i feel like a shitty friend : \ its like, i know what i should be doing right now, but i fear that if i do, i will only irritate. i try and think what i would want someone to do in my place, and then i think, am i blowing everything out of proportion? i feel so in the dark, like i have no idea what is going on. and i think its my fault, unless someone turned out the light on their way out. in that case, i can really only stumble my way to the door, and feel around for the light switch. i'm thinking chances are slim.