There's only so many times you can hit Send/Receive, no one updates their blogs as frequently as I am looking for something to read, the last phone call I received to the tune of "how are you" was longer ago than I can remember, everyone is dating someone that isn't me, and it's during the week that the temperature is in the 80s and not until the weekend does it decide to rain and be gray. I truly realize that I am lucky to be safe and alive and healthy and breathing, but I am still allowed a disconnect between what I know I have and what I feel I have... which is nothing. It's shitty, feeling this way. Here's to hoping this turn around soon.