it's ridiculous how i've gone from fine to very sick within 12 hours. i feel like shit. like a big pile of it, too. and i've realized that it's been soooo long since i've been taken care of. i think i'm too independant acting. even if i got sick in high school (meaning at home), i usually held my own and medicated myself, got myself what i needed, etc. not that no one offered, i just did it myself. i still do. but right now, i don't want to take care of myself. i want to be taken care of. i want to just go to bed. i think i will.