Friday, October 24, 2003

It feels good to not care about silly things that would usually embarrass me. At lunch today, I see a hot waiter that we had seen before at the same restaurant, and while I had his eye contact, I nonchalantly pressed my arm against Cora’s. She looked up, followed the trail of my eyes, and saw what I was looking at (a fine specimen of human being, I must say). Naturally, he saw the one-second transaction that had just occurred, and I looked away, not quickly or anything, just slightly red in the cheeks. I started laughing once he passed, and Cora just said, “Eh, who the fuck cares?” and the second she said it, I knew I didn’t. That was the best Friday feeling ever! If it were someone else sitting there and they had looked at him obviously, I probably would have felt like a fool for a good five minutes, and secretly resent the fact that they hadn’t been careful to make it unobvious. Then when I think about it, that’s the dumbest thing in the world! I’m embarassed to admit that I’ve felt like that, all over something as stupid as checking out a waiter!! If I can add correctly, my thirteenth birthday was something like eleven years ago, maybe it’s a good thing I’ve started to act my age…

So this really is just a reiteration of my away message, but you know you need to just go back to sleep when you get in the shower, and start washing your face with shampoo.

I’ve decided that I want one (well, that had already been decided… re-affirmed is a better choice of word) all the while remembering that I want to wait. Second-hand Buddha Pat’s and my mom’s advice still rings in my ears loudly on that subject. Baby steps.

Newsflash: it’s rude to stare.

It’s funny how some people are really good at squeezing things into conversations. I don’t think I’m one of them, hence me thinking it’s funny. You know what I mean… like when you’re making plans to hang out, and you ask what they want to do, and they casually say “oh, I don’t know, we can get some pizza, watch tv, have sex” and they just slipped that last bit in there so naturally that you’re taken by surprise and don’t have time to calculate an equally smooth retort. Then you just continue the conversation as normal, only really realizing afterwards that they just got away with saying that, and you wonder how.

I have a meeting with the technology leader here at GE motors, soon to be ______motors. I should probably get going and, I don’t know, prepare for the meeting so as to not sit there mute with confusion. LOL can you so picture me sitting there not saying a word!? I love it!

And don’t you worry, attentive blog readers… I really can add. Just seeing if you were paying attention. Trying to keep y’all on your toes!!!

ps. see post below. i'm not feelin' the last-line email-me plead lovin'. it took me like five minutes to figure out how to do the email link thing. i know it's annoying cuz if you don't use Outlook it will open in Outlook and that can be annoying as hell, but humor me! i need some humor!!

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