Saturday, October 4, 2003

i have only lied while playing truth-or-dare (which, since i've been around 15 or so, has been really just "truth") twice. the one time was the summer of my study abroad, and i was hanging out with a different crowd than i usually did. we were at a sweet-ass bar in galway, playing a drinking/tell-all game (called "i never"... i'm sure some of you have played it). i had only known these people on a superficial basis for about 4 weeks, and i think that night was the first time i even talked to a few of them. needless to say, i wasn't about to get too personal with them, cuz that's just how i am. some call it a weakness, i call it... not wanting to divulge while drinking with strangers. anyway, the second time was tonight. my roommate is 'having trouble' with her boyfriend, so she stayed here in fort wayne this weekend. you'd have to know her to understand that this never happens. i rarely talk to her for extended periods of time because she's either a) on the phone with her boyfriend b) at Purdue (2 hrs. away, and yes she will go there for the night mid-week and return the next morning for work...) or c) he's here, and they're in her room 'being anti-social' as i will put it. so tonight, she wanted to get some drinks and play cards. which really turned into "lindsay, you lost that hand, truth or dare?" and hence, the lying part. i don't really know why i lied... i don't even know why i am blogging about it, really. guilt maybe. i don't like to lie. but i guess she did get me talking about some things that were true, and that self-reflection i owe to her. which, i guess, makes me feel a little bit more guilty about not being 100% truthful with my answers. oh well, i guess sometimes, you just do what you gotta do...

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