i feel so... manic right now.

i'm kinda just chillin' out max right now... but i had an uneasy feeling a few minutes ago. i don't know exactly what brought it on, but i kinda felt... out of it. like kind of alone. i have my sweet ass roommates to keep me grounded, bless them, and i will miss them so much! : \ and the one and only roxanne... who will shed a tear for me in the middle of target :_( karin i will see probably as often as i see her now, which isn't enought!!! oh now i'm all pouty.

but really, all of this is trite and meaningless when compared to the news that jeremy and steve lost their friend last night in a car accident. hell, if it can happen (losing someone, i mean) to someone who you care about, then it can happen to you. and while i didn't know julie, i am sad for jeremy. and it's like, there's nothing to say. i've been on the other side of that, and it all sounds like bullshit. but. i hope there is a shred of comfort in the next few weeks for both steve and jeremy.

"oh no, i've said too much... i haven't said enough. i thought that i heard you laughing, i thought that i heard you sing. i think i thought i saw you try."
"i was thinking to myself, 'this could be heaven or this could be hell' "
"do you remember when we used to say shalalalalalalalalalalatida" (<---- that's me!)
"i see you lookin' at me i can tell by your eyes that you're feelin' me"
"you don't always have to fuck her hard, in fact sometimes that's not right now, sometimes you gottsa make some loooove"
"well in a couple of years they have built a home sweet home"
"i know what it feels like to be alone... my life stopping to say hello, it's my life, why can't we take this slow?"
"i saw him dancing there by the record machine, knew he musta been about seventeen, the beat was going strong, playin' my favorite song... and i could tell it wouldn't be long til he was with me"
"this years' love had better last, heaven knows it high time"
"and i well i seen a thousand things in one place, but i stopped my counting when i saw your face... erasing memory, well i feel as though i never seen a face before till i saw your eyes, and they smiling back at me through my tears, i've been counting all these years, oh suddenly the thousand things i seen are nothing but the dreams of you and me."

enough quotage. have exam in less than 9 hours. should maybe study a bit, eh?
auf wiedersehen.

so, luck be it, i am sick before finals for the 2nd or 3rd time in my college career. this is a pretty mild sick, though, compared to spring freshman year. oh man, i was in horrible shape, blowing my nose like every 5 seconds. every time i swallowed, my ears popped. my ears were teary for the entire 2 hours. it was disasterous. this time, i merely (!) have a headache, which is unusual to me because i rarely feel not-good. don't you hate it when you are congested only on one side?! what the heck is up with that!? generally, my face hurts. okay, why do i sound like a geriatric!? enough of this.

ok, is it considered a booty call if you've never actually slept with the person? i reserve the term usually for someone who "calls for more" but i guess it can sort of be used for a first time offender. not like it really matters anyway.

i think i'm going to order bells ( haha i just wrote "oder bells" instead first, and i remembered topo, my hebrew scriptures teacher from high school who called the old testament the "ode testament") cuz i won't have much chance for quality east lansing food for much longer! adios amigos.

xoxo

i'm just a curb-side prophet with my hand in my pocket and i'm waiting for my rocket to come.

ahhhhhhh!

my ponytail is midget, like an inch long. :P i also have an itch on my stomach, i've scratched it like for five minutes just now and it is all red and splotchy now. grooooss. i am sooo copying rob right now, but at least i said so. here's the away messages up right now

napping... call the cell

Chillin with the Girls

OP time. and. I have a simpsons watch. from burger king!!!

Stanley Goodspeed: You've been around a lot of corpses. Is that normal?
John Mason: What, the feet thing?
Stanley Goodspeed: Yeah, the feet thing.
John Mason: Yeah, it happens.
Stanley Goodspeed: Yeah, well I'm having a hard time concentrating. Can you do something about it?
John Mason: Like what, kill him again?

I feel sorry for all of you who take forever to fall asleep. I can do it like a snap! I could even fall asleep right here on the keyb-- ghtufkndyghdhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

At the library

Why is it they all want their ex-girlfriends?

Things that make you go hummmm????
Manute Bol has traded in his basketball sneakers and boxing trunks and now is in a shocking search for a pair of ice skates. The 7-foot-7 former NBA shot-blocker agreed to terms Tuesday to play with the Indianapolis Ice of the Central Hockey League. WTF!!!!

;-)try to find me!

PISS OFF!! >:o
sorry but i'm not in the greatest of moods!

Men, be more alert and cautious when getting a drink offer from a girl. There is a drug called beer, that is essentially in liquid form. The drug is now being used by female sexual predators at parties to convince their male victims to have sex with them.
The shocking statistic is that beer is available virtually anywhere! All girls have to do is buy a beer or two for almost any guy and simply ask the guy home for no-strings attached sex. Men are literally rendered helpless against such attacks.
Please! Forward this to everyone you know!!!

sleeeeeepppp!

In the end love matters too "and in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make"

"Chillin in the parking lot, eatin some fries"

Ladies night in full effect!! ;-)

Disco Dance tomorrow night!!! Everyone come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gettin some zzzz's....O:-)
"They took all the trees and put them in a tree museum, charged the people a dollar and a half just to see them..." Good Luck Linds!! You own those trees... :-)


---------end quotes---------- well that was fun. not really. hmmm. why do i suck. i love my stolen toy story figurina. she's so me. i like how she sits atop my shelf, arms spread open with her little cowgirl outfit. mind you, i am not a cowgirl, nor do i perch on shelves with my arms out.. but still.

that's funny, i didn't knowi have james brown on my winamp list. sah-weet. i love over-tipping during the holidays. today i went to pf's for some take-out, and my total was 6 bucks, so i matched it and gave the bartender a 6 dollar tip. and when i got my hair cut i paid with a 20 and said keep the change. why should my mom and dad be the only people (oh and my brother's girlfriend, go figure!_) be the only people i give gifts? which kind of makes me feel guilty for overlooking the couple of people jingling cups on the streets of chi-town. : \

i gotsa get to my hw... seeing as how tomorrow is the last day of class, i think i'll put together my notebooks finally. i'm stupid.

sometimes i'm good at snapping one-liners and having comebacks, so rarely do i meet someone i can't think of anything to say to. but that's how it was with j.mraz... i was like uhhhh. chode and a half. ahhhhhh. i'm a band-aid!

so my work assignment either starts jan. 2 or jan. 6... if it is the 2nd, i will die! that's less than a month, (then again the 6th is just a month away anyway) but still, i'd have to move on new years. no thank you. i'll pass go and keep my 200.

i want to go to san fran. if i go, i might not come back.

happy december!

i went to chicago for the weekend, it was my first trip there. why was it my first trip there!? it was like the best city ever! i'm shocked i haven't made it there before this past weekend, and i can't wait to go there in june after we're all 21 :D thanksgiving was soooo nice, and i had the best time this weekend with my family. i am such a nerd with them, it's funny the things we talk about (will not do any divulging tonight). ate at pfchangs/chicago on saturday night, was sooo good. i met a boy in the navy on the train ride back to where we were staying, who said he thought i was 16, until i mentioned college, then assumed 18. he was 18 with a fiance, which was weird, and he was a deadringer for my cousin rob, who is just as hyperactive spastic as this kid was. at any rate, hearing him explain the whole navy life was crazy. the whole 16 year old thing was crazy, chicago was crazy beautiful. i looooovvvvveeeed it.

i could sleep for, like, a day straight. i'm going to go make out with my bed.

i don't go to class, and i wonder why i get 60% on my exams? well, that's a lie, cuz i don't really wonder, i just pick up my exam and go "oh, a 60%" without expression and then go about my day. and like i try and think of what i do when i don't go to class, and i really come up with nothing. i haven't been hanging out a lot... haven't been talking to people really... not so much t.v. as earlier in the year... sure as hell don't work out... i guess i HAVE been working a lot, i guess. i love the girls at my work, we have so much fun ripping on people and things and more people. i'm going to miss my work girls, but not as much as i'm going to miss my *girls*. : ( i know i'm not like dying or something, but moving away is becomming a big deal to me! it's like so... away. could i sound any stupider with that last sentence? it's funny to actually type out how you say things in your head. hahaha. yessssss. my home rules. i like it, cuz there's just so many people here. like, i come home, and there's 5 of us, doing our thing around the house. then we all make and eat dinner together. it's so... cool! shit i am sounding stuuuuupid, but i always think about the future and when/if i have a family, i want it to be just like mine... i can't imagine not having 2 brothers and a sister, it's like the best thing ever. ahhhhh. must get married soon and have kids! of course, my husband will be an aspiring writer or musician, and offer to stay home at least part time so we can both work and raise said child(ren).how much fun does that sound?!?!

oh my, howie day may be one of the hottest people alive... except when his people yell at my people. : \ : D